Right when I thought this book couldn’t get any crazier… let’s get into it. I’m not even surprised by anything anymore if that says something about this book lol.
The answers we all have been waiting for about Kevin’s case… it got closed. I am so mad at this. Like actually. I guess Amat’s information to the judge was not enough. And I actually don’t know how it wasn’t, he witnessed everything. But once this new information got out, Kira started to cry again because they thought Amats testimony was going to end Kevin’s career. But as I just typed not even close. It is literally like 1 step forward and 10 steps back. I just feel so bad for Maya. Kevin will be living his life while Maya won’t be. The theme in this section is trauma for sure. I will cover more at the end too so you know what I mean.
But another big thing I read is about Benji. I was expecting to read about his healing process or whatever (which I did eventually) but David, his coach through JV and Varsity, who he is very close with as well ended up keeping a big secret. Benji is gay and David ends up catching Benji and some guy in the woods, but Benji doesn’t know that yet. David went home and started to panic because his father and David made many gay jokes around Benji. And he feels AWFUL. David was basically Benji’s second dad and that means he did not feel like David was trust worthy. I even felt awful about how David was feeling. And especially for Benji who felt like he could tell no one! Ugh, everything is just such a mess right now.
David and Benji’s trust
This is the biggest part you want to lock in on though… I was very confused and even had to ask Mrs. Johnson…
Basically, Maya never ends up healed from what happened to her. The book flashed forward about 10 years every other paragraph. So stay with me here. I mentioned how Maya took one of Ana’s guns to go find Kevin last blog right… well, she did it again but this time she went to him. Maya ran out when Kevin was running on the track and pointed the gun at him! She really did! Here’s the biggest plot twist, no one dies in the book. She put the gun to Kevin’s head and told him that he would be scared of the dark now too. That is WILD! So the whole 10 year this is just representing trauma! Kevin lived his life and Maya is still traumatized but ended up being a great guitarist. BUT she ends up meeting Kevin in a parking lot where he has a wife who is pregnet,and he sees Maya and tells his wife everything in the car ride home. I AM SHOCKED. In a way, Maya kinda gets her way back at Kevin. Because he wife knows now, which I wonder how that worked out in the end…
Me questioning what I just read in this whole section…
I apologize if this section is hard to understand because it was for me too. Hopefully, you enjoyed my book just as much as me!